• bpiSaac •

Busy, busy time but still breathing.
And I also had to edit one tiny thing — I’m a year older, hehe.
Be well.

xoxo

I’m slowly easing myself back into the swing of things. The need to be back to normal is deafening. The urgency is a little overwhelming, hence dragging my feet. I don’t know whether that is a good idea or not but a part of me says wallowing in self-pity in the meantime is a part of the healing process. Vagueness is intentional. Bear with me. With that said, I’ll let Leona do the rest.

Knew the signs wasn’t right
I was stupid, for a while
Swept away, by you
And now I feel like a fool

So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never meant to be

Catch myself, from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy, everyday
I know I will be ok

But I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never meant to be

So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You’ll be out of my mind
I’ll be over you

And know I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never meant to be
Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There’s a life out there for me

Love cripples despite the pleasure it gives.
The constant need for and to provide reassurance is exhausting. More so in the latter.
Despite your best intentions, pushing others away is inevitable.

Lord, what fools these mortals be!

Ahhh. So it’s been a long ass while. Things around here have been rather busy.
I’ll be back with some interesting (hopefully) stuff. I’ll even lug my camera around if by chance something worth sharing pops up…and knowing my quirky little town, something will.

Here’s a concept worth thinking about: “Happiest when in love.”
Is it true for you?
Does it disgust you?
Do you feed on it?
Does it give you the urge to change zip codes?

…and wtf happened to my ScribeFire banner? Shit Crap.

I swear, I have the nicest cousin ever. Joylei stopped by yesterday bearing a gift, a Lucky bamboo plant. I absolutely love it. As she entered the door, she said, “You can’t have Asian decor without a bamboo plant.” She’s the best. Not only was she right about that but she was also right to choose a plant that will be hard for me to kill. Right? You should see the orchid I got for my birthday last year. Well you won’t be able to see it because it’s long gone due to unforeseen circumstances. Okay fine, I killed it. Not on purpose, of course. I just have a knack for that sort of thing. Do you have any idea how much care orchids need? It felt like having another child around. Anyway I digress. I’m sure this one will last longer. Maybe.

(subject to add-ons)

• Iris blowing raspberries
• Seeing a passerby with a bouquet of flowers
• Being called mama instead of mommy
• Listening to Manley in the Morning & The Fabulous Jo while in morning traffic
• Picking up Iris at school
• Iris absently singing along to the radio
• Lime-flavored popsicles
• Honey Dijon Vinaigrette
• Adobe Photoshop
• Designing while listening to Ducky, my iPod (yeah, I named it)
• Sushi (not so much now since I’m boycotting rice)
• Iris kissing my booboo
• Cherry tomatoes
• Blog comments
• Three-way calls with cousins
• MicSem Forum (on good days)

From this:

To this.

(Click to enlarge)
• brush provided by: Shiranui

A new t-shirt design made for a friend. (Click to enlarge) He liked the first attempt so he’s going to stick with it. I’m not entirely happy with the results but it’s not about what I want. There’s always room for improvement, I say.

• brush provided by: Shiranui

It’ll be interesting to see what direction the design will take, if any. Here’s an excerpt
on Palikir Pass (P-Pass) from Transworld Surf Magazine.

Palikir Pass is hands-down one of the world’s best waves. Many pros agree that Palikir is better than Lance’s Right. Pohnpei’s other spots are also powerful and hollow reef-pass setups, and although an island map will reveal numerous passes, only a handful of them offer consistently decent surf, some of it world-class. More on this.

To view kickass pictures of surfers riding choice waves including P-Pass,
check out Pohnpei Surf Club.